MLC

What is the matter?
why have you looked to me with disguised bitterness
have you lost your pearls of rolling years
were they stolen by forgotten youth
Or were they swallowed ...
with decadent truth in disconsolation

You look to me
for a thief of something you lost
prepared the poison to numb my senses
while the rush of envy
wash you into a splitting coin
of the joker and the king

Pouring it slowly
into every thought, every word
your ever lasting presence
brooding dissatisfaction..

Now...
part of me understood,
not whom I loved that I'd grasped
unfruitful seed of deceit griped you to a tail of karma
caged a trail of roots over your thoughts
everything you see & speak became a mirror
to your most predominant thoughts

You use to be so bright
like the sparkling lights in the dark night ...
your presence haloed with love and trust
your soul beams joy and delight

Then, you replaced it
safe keepings of power and secrets
and look to me as a traitor
you knew, I'd see right through...
I've never lied, for what would become of you
if you deceive yourself

So, that's how it goes...
forming a web of cruel reality that torments
a mind that was unfaithful to it's core
cast it's alienation onto it's people
friends, family, loved ones and society
for that it knew... if they are the ones sinful
perhaps it will be spared
guilt no longer will be burdened on alone

I was guilty
to have seen it
please forgive me
my lack of faith

for that ...
made it real