Trade of scars

aware
darkness
all around

light swipes
back forth
passing
penetrative
affectionately
expose her space
simmering soft comfort
where dreams are alive
her world sleeps by
womb of creation
unanswered to
questionings
wavering
in silver
glitters
catch
multitudes
in lights of life
snowing rainbows
timeless dimensions
waves of sounds push
breathe of sea rushes in
space shift out a new horizon
boundaries dissolve by splashes
recalling motions of night dreams

chased into destination unknown
by the man who's covered by scars
trader of mobility and substance
speaks hidden terrors of pain
unaware of why she runs
perhaps in all seen marks
spring distance between

love and hatred within
how do you see love
witnessing the scars
demolishing anger
vanishing hopes
turning around
remembering

she's came
for a reason
handing it out
Scar in her palm
in face of herself
she received a key
in elements of truth
the trading is now done
the sufferer is within herself

reeling tracks

invisible entry
an exit comes
glide knowingly
in none existence
warm light
earthly liquid
cocoa beans
I, vanishing
to finger tips
between the eyes
sense of touch
hyphens stillness
gentle reassurance
living essence
within time and space
speaking elements
feelings of clockworks
yet undercurrents
unseen motions
imprints, thoughts
exciting, transmittable
from Bermuda triangle
to river Nile Pyramid Horus
soundless reeling tracks
inner dreams and hopes
translations in between
unconceivable realities
perceptive vacancy
now wholly irreverent
train of thoughts
critical voices of mine
in combative wars
it's meanings
are at lost
in words
visions
remain poetic sketch

Clues of hour Zero

Clues to the grandeurs affair
is in strange seeings of hearts
natural connection when eyes met
in faintest bloom of a secret blush
quietest affinity with one as of thy self
insistent revelations of hidden warmth
undeniable joy in brief boundryless states
slightest provocativeness turn to laughter 
soft comfort of a world not completely closed
the end of one's solitude in timeless strength
beginning of one's magnitude on an extensive forge 
you rush to contain a sigh and echo in your soul
stop and capture a look.. touch it with your smile
begin to be aware of love's soul bearing quests
in pain in separation we long to unite as whole
in each new tale spark of eternity created
you will seek me out even without time
you will seek me out even without light
you will seek me out even without path
you will seek me out even in deep despair
seek me out in longest nights
seek me out by darkest Moon
seek me out on dimmest paths
seek me out at hopelessness nest
Cos this is your given clues
I am yours riddles to decrypt
I am stories yours to be told
I am the dream yours behold
song, touch your deepest core
because I am your lover
and the faithful servant
your equal grandeurs self
I am your life,  your soul
I am God in which all that is
one you tirelessly devote
and called out at hour zero
find me now in clues
return to home soon
purest vision expressive
my boundless love interpreted

Eye of Rebirth

Clues to the grandeurs affair
is in strange seeings of hearts
natural connection when eyes met
in faintest bloom of a secret blush
quietest affinity with one as of thy self
insistent revelations of hidden warmth
undeniable joy in brief boundryless states
slightest provocativeness turn to laughter 
soft comfort of a world not completely closed
the end of one's solitude in timeless strength
beginning of one's magnitude on an extensive forge 
you rush to contain a sigh and echo in your soul
stop and capture a look.. touch it with your smile
begin to be aware of love's soul bearing quests
in pain in separation we long to unite as whole
in each new tale spark of eternity created
you will seek me out even without time
you will seek me out even without light
you will seek me out even without path
you will seek me out even in deep despair
seek me out in longest nights
seek me out by darkest Moon
seek me out on dimmest paths
seek me out at hopelessness nest
Cos this is your God given clues
I am yours riddles to decrypt
I am stories yours to be told
I am the dream yours behold
song, touch your deepest core
because I am your lover
and the faithful servant
your equal grandeurs self
I am your life,  your soul
God in which all that is
one you tirelessly devote
and called out at hour zero
find me now in clues
return to home soon
the purest vision expressive
my boundless love interpreted

Chasing bullets

On the cliff 
where all sounds sleep
echo of mountain air
swoops ocean tides
howling patrolling
hungry eyes
be the wolf
seeking blood, bones
or the corpse
eaten devolved 
a whisk of flesh
torn to death
sacred life        
a storm
run from or run to
spinning electric force
turns thundering wheels
to be with the dream mist
lingers by feet of forest
sips crystal dews of green
vacant and distant
soft snoozing drips
like forgotten tears
here it comes
strayed notions
restless hunt
burnt for victory
once aimed
no longer living
object, amusement
any target
for chasing bullets
shot of eager spear
a blast of darkness
warm flood of life flaunts over
heart beating faintly in memories
of closing steps shadowing
in the eyes with all fire
melts drops by cold ice
my beloved sighed
cried in light so dim
a spark of time flew        
was it all but a dream
why his hands are so cold
the shore is further
sing songs of love
it is frail but sure
if you listen ..  

Song

My deepest desire to sing
in distances of our belonging
you and me in the vast space
notes dance across universe
each lands softly as our tears

spark off a hundred stars
shine on darkest nighs
of all tireless journeys

you are my faith
my strength
my desire to be

Heaven, is not a place we go .

Heaven and hell is on earth
ohh how foolish of us to think
it is a place we go after death
Look around
see with the eyes of your soul
many hell bound brothers walk among us
you are frightened, you want heaven
you keep and steer your distances
Yes the gate for you to heaven
is within in a seed, a spark
which you sew in a turmoiled soul
aspire the moment of innocence
which was forgotten within them

Hell bound ones are still creator's off springs
for each choice made and steps taken
they journey darker sinister places.. lost
with each temptation they surrender to
they are lost.. children in sweet shops
tears fall when the night draws
a world turned the back on them
cast them in hell and give no hope
in grievances the only wish is vengeance
to be left in gutters and forgotten

Children of God, what are you doing ?
It is your brother, it is your sister..
they need your help in darkest nights
frightened and hopelessly trapped
while the rest of the world creates a image
of heaven .. with glimmering trinkets
luscious delights of material gains
which is yet another form of hell
a hell of emptiness and unfeeling
a void that bars our true callings
to our inexhaustible need to love
to give and share all we have
to keep us in delusions
short temporary happiness
where we numb our pain
of hearing howls from hell
We have traded our vision of love
with images of dolls with sleeping souls
of all which are unreal, and hollow
yet there is deep longing still
we think there is more we need
to acquire to obtain from this world
When it is a sure sign that we long
to behold love and it's power to reach
every dim dark places where scarcity is

Do not be afraid to love my dear
those hideous faces of anger
are more vulnerable than you know
they have kept themselves in a jail
told themselves there's no tomorrow
in this loveless world with no hope
and you, my child, will be the light
the bringer of the sun, the warmth..
cast a different shade to their existence
and bring about miracles of love
it is God's gift to you, child
the heaven is on earth
when you hold out your hands
with just a slightest smile
welcome those frightened souls
the kingdom is not a place we go
it is our work to bring it forth

Tides of Eternity and Ego

Stillness
angels and demons
at gate
whist
I rest beside
embedded grave of fate
we sleep in silence
eyes open
Tears pushed over by pulses
this love, no time can chase over
we died a thousand years ago
in time, mere a concept of mortality
You, are an echo of longing I cried out
when I was faithless to eyes of my soul
broken, in rituals of numb existence
I sleep walk.. a state of unconsciousness
it has always been my heart that reads
countless poems you gently sang.. sooth my soul
haunting melodies dance inside me, never forgotten
each note clenched to my chest by indigo nights...
waiting.. of my return, our next step forward

Stars laugh in timeless play, tickling Moon
I ran across in speed of light, reach for you
timed distance, between melodic rhythms
counted all the stones thrown up to the shore
memories, all I won't recall still yet to be born
ripples.. signs before your return to wake me
yet we were shook into another existence
tiny fragile fossils embossed by Storm
with a infinite kiss lies in heart of Earth
again I was blind, in a mortal world
to walk a course signed with our soul

Once written in lyrical embodiment
every last thought to be forgotten
of all such passion I declared for you
reformed a heart that bears more
with eyes that sees too deep too far
with the love you endlessly pour
I was a siren in tides of ego
a flake of ice froze in thin air

playing dolls and I became a doll
transitional maze in my own core
I became a world melt in plastic pots
all that I wish and care to be, is the light
that dances around your every shift

Truth never linger impressed ink on scrolls
nor could it remain in prisoners of region
lies of man amplified by Satan's microphones
all that which weakens lavishes his thorn
a dice jolt to chance in all names of one God
ego, tied men beside in confused mumble
tension, wells in smells of bitter fear
is it a win for the take or is it a draw
Man, God and Ego play daily games
it costs a fair dim you ought to share
believer's faith is in tracing inner grace

Here, I am but a soul fills sheets of dreams
by the shore, I am a siren with new sore feet
given chance redeems ego convicted sins
in dreams where I once devoured and theft
games played seen and done times more
visions in bold prints from ink of my skull..
heart wrenched ships are devil's scores
of all whom won't ride far out of the storm
I sat by bleeding sun in a frozen sea
watched all weakened men sink and fleet

Oh, was it Satan's work in my mind.. tricks

a loveless heart that casts evil spells on
upon a world of sleeping soulless bearings
sacrificed in sins I died 9 times and more
crime against the mortal lives of mine

no one but me, murdering self within
whilst again.. I failed to believe..
eyes of my form cannot see
and touch all that which I am..
a part of you.. of God



I hear waves through concrete walls
the old mountains rumble my name
from under the tarmac wrapped Earth
the wind carries your sighing breath
sorrow foamed in cherished grief
fire burns a hole from the day before
like an empty glass house
I have no where to hide
from the scene of a world inside
God, I was never taught how to swim
in tides of eternity.. fears of dying ego
before he left to rein demon's ordeals
crucified in blood of fear, over and over again
reborn beneath with all banished souls
I cried each time a wave rushes over me

in this tiny existence of nothingness
Yet everything beside, a part of me
the terror the joy the love the pain
in every cell in every inch of my being

Sun and Moon rise and fall
all happening witnessed
cradles a core beyond imagination
every living tale in grand creation
a invisible entry to every form
welcome with open arms
embraced as love
worshiped as God
crucified by fear
diminished as evil
delighted we play childish games
in darkness,  mis-created pain
frozen past formed uncut diamonds
all wisdom gained, on journeys to deep
unraveling a existence already happened
exiled a moment
where new universe was formed
I no longer know who I really am or was
nor do I know who and what is where
to begin, or end

To me.. you are everything before my eyes
appear within this moment, in purest love
in devious thoughts of all mischievousness
begging for my return yet withhold a path
almost that if a region you cannot walk
water below Lillis leading it's own destiny
your words in washes of night ocean
" just don't forge me..  my love
I can be denied but I will never cease
the power of my light is for your to contain "

tears rain.. on my tired sore eyes
when my heart bloomed in fire
finally I see you, in the center of me
where we are formed as divinity
the eternity of all dimensions

Sunlit garden, dancing sparkles.. Stars
in the center of complete darkness
lies and truth of all that we thought
play on.. in joy of random shuffle
bemused, with our listening ears
with our own playful faith and belief
angels and demons are sent
by commands to walk beside us
with messages of delight, from his Grace
: Come ! whisper me some more !

Warmth

The feelings of your soul reflect back to mine
pouring your life through the cuts in me
now a river that runs all my quiet wisdom
revived I awash all mine back to yours
I am warmth and I am there in your loneliness
silently I weep while stand by your side
your faithless vision see not my light
I now command you to touch and  feel
not by the skin and felt of another form
but reach to me with your soul
I want to be known and hold close
I want you to become a part of mine
to be the warmth you miss the most
all which were yours to behold
give and be that fire you wish
I, warmth.. become yours for real

Fate

Fate, we linger on to your dress
and make your our bride
do our daily dance
wed you twice
and more

Fate, we hold on to your heels
tripping over the banquette
we seem so devoted
yet you are puzzled

Fate, you walk away today
as if we have never met
the spell is broken
you were in tears
I chased after you
and saw you for real

You are just a tiny little force
gathering all the collective thought form
all that we believe true and hold on to
we name everything after you
no wonder you are scared

Fate, come over here
a soft gentle cuddle
all these things we dump on your door
now you really don't want to go home
when everyone makes you responsible
while grip on to you as the invisible crutch

Fate, common, lets just run
all you wanted is dance in the ball
and play with every child of God
and tell your little bright stories
lift them with your fairy dust
so they will soon fly with your bless

Fate, lets go and play
enjoy our day
leave the world behind
let them take their own steps
you are tired of sprinkling sparkles
turning to some sort of therapeutic substance
you just want to scream with all your little might
and tell them to all  bloody make their own fate
instead of dumping their rubbish on your white dress

Sigh ~ Your beautiful dress
made of clouds and candy floss
so sweet so soft so light
now it's turning grey
with ash of pain

follow me Fate
lets run away fast
race lightning
they'll never catch
we are free to storm
as far as we wish

Chasam of Thunder

The sea visited today
in, over and over
drawn yet contained
salt in cool blood streams
turned a rush of fever
when sun came
catch in tides
of sky blue high
so right, so light
like always
like beginning

Pure white velvet bliss
hush blue weaver dreamer's crib
ever lasting tides of silver lining
memories crash by shore
flying pearls and crystal spills
in blossom of sleeping lotus
fused heart enclosed
mercy reside insolence
unrecongnised saboteurs
array within darkening twilight
interwoven illusions of ego parade
trading truth with made beliefs
hooked hell to hosts an empire
bear it's plan to contaminate
victories, of man made glory

Prayers carve a blessing stone
from a man's innermost core
throw it afar across forth
in the beam of lightning
furthest edge of the ocean
to a deep chasm of absolute
ripples, soul dances ignite
fuel fire within the soul
armed in diamond laser
entering the eye of storm

the Goddess light
the Godly ray
shine on to all behold
house sacred hearts in temples
power sparks in heaven

Eternity, glides over
by light  by moon
liquid silk of metallic river
linger by and whispered
" Be mine, be forever
soar, in nightly fragrance
belong, to deepest desire
sleep in pure lasting bloom "
in my unbreakable vowels
woken a world of wonder
launch, close in, onto turbulence
every fiber in burning swift of time
strike, I was born to ride thunder
from the start... the war is already over

Oracle Moon's voyage

I lay out a line
and placed it in between
the last and the next thought
metaphors of my existence
is now... again, shape shifting
between spirit and dreams
I see no one is really here
except the eterne echo
of oracle moon's last breath
on earth where she lived by
inner core of her fire origin
where her stance is one and all
for thousands and millions women
all their subbing tears at sleepless nights
and the tireless prayers of love
formed a moon lit path
a crystal trail with diamond cut edge
steep fall, to beneath with all captured souls
chained by delusions of self possessed grievance
lava of pain, betrayal, lust, hurdles to underworld
each step is a trial with transparent horror
Love, is a warrior's accredit
not an fainthearted voyage
whilst the world represented you
erotic fantasies with another body
entice your senses with luscious desires
bar your move with icicles of frozen tears
where one must now keep inner eye open
to walk the twist of her dire crystal passage
I anchor my soul to my timeless divine lover
spear the passion with undiminished fire
walk through flam for a cleansed destiny
beholding her sacred Babylonian locket
enraptured with her deepest grace
walk on in given bless
an entry to the next gate