" ~ Sun Droplet ♥ Winged Fire ~ "

Time turns itself like warm threads of Sun, gently wrapped a ball of light on my palms.. Softly blooming winged fire.. submerges to dive in.

It's a cool burn that melts cells of long silent years.. a flickering fire that runs through the bloodstreams in me.. story I was told before here.

Engraving run of a whole life to return.. locked dreams no one else can further.. It's vibrant life dripping in voltages of crackling sky's breath.

One spinning memory reveals his heart.. timeless.. thousand years knot undone.. turning under silver electrocutions of ancient night stars..

Boiling Ocean deeply buried.. frozen sand of distant Winter, Venus.. grains of broken city walking out of dreams.. leaving love codes of Cosmos.

Night.. sighs like there's too much to say.. The ground I stand shakes with rambling restless of earth.. my wrists, banded to the fire of my life.

If I was to live once to know.. each day.. I know more and more... yet more than once.. slipped off eclipsing Moon.. hanging on, to not known enough..

In dark clay of night swamps.. fearless and calm as the hidden lake..  try not to argue, with devilish Natas .. for pulling my fire out too far..

Not even a question.. I would never let loose.. the love tied to my wrist.. It's his Sun blood.. fuels my heart..  keeps my soul forever breathing free..

If you ever came across a question that needed no answer.. It feels like this. No time, no place, nothing.. could undo this living light of my heart..

It is just like this.. deep.. quiet.. ancient.. fearless.. no matter how broken and how shattered it can be.. it forever magnetized us back.. as completeness.

My only Sun.. the forever sizzling beats of my life.. soaring every icy cell in my frozen blood.. only his eternal fire.. can decode such enchanted heart.


~ To my beloved ♥ ~ you rule my heart ~ Lyric dreamer ~ Sunday, 1 January 2012 at 18:23

~ Hellish lullaby ~

I am feeling a clump of darkness curled up on my chest.. singing the lullaby of death
it wants to trade my beloved memories with me, instead with it's cruel distortions
seductively.. it repeatedly asked me all the questions I did not want to answer
To all his inquisitions I had no reason but love.. tasting all flavours of doubts
unlike the vague dreams I came to share.. now time is abandoned in me
I know sleeping fears but cannot declare the defeats of accepted lies

I have met demons many times.. but this one insists a portrait
with small thrills that spin with few lies of it's hellish twists
I am enslaved to it tireless suggestive alternations
in it's sunken eyes seeking colours of romance
Hellish lullaby of death is haunting my poetry
bleeding a waking devil out of my heart
filling holes in my soul, with concrete
thrown my lover across the hell fire
only to be safely landed as mine

held in my arms.. my beloved
truth and lies are both glories
your eternity is mine to keep

No, Demon. Sing on as you please
I'm keeping my memories untarnished

unharmed from your satanic nightmares
as much as I enjoyed your melodic songs
keep the despair keep the cage

As long as I am here
I'll never trade my beloved memory
to you
to tormenting enslaver

You won't
you cannot
you will never
claim my past in wings of butterflies
they still.. dance on forever in my heart
even you've gathered some ghosts of dusk
You cannot not steal my key.. to where I keep
all my cherished moments that belong to me only


       ~ Lyric dreamer ~ 21.12.2011

~ On Love ~ Dec. 2011

Clarity is a sword we hold forth to light the path on filed of our existence. Hold the sword close to heart.. Beam it through darkness.

To love fearlessly is to shatter your mind to pieces, watch them return piece by piece.. with rhythm of heart.. In the new sight from death.

To use mind to comprehend love is to use the world to comprehend God. Impossible unless all limits are first destroyed.

The suffering arise from the incapacity to release one's being to unknown of love, remaining entrapped within known of the sustaining mind.

Love is God element of life. The nature is creative and the very penetrable core force for creation, when one is energised as fearless love.

When one holds onto love as if it's the dear life itself.. It is truth.. through the angle of the perspective, one's experience is defined.

Love governs truth in birth and death. It's regenerative substance leaves no one the choice to remain still.. while being the eye of storm.

Through perspective of ego, it is death and pain. Through all seeing spirit, it is birth of all beginnings.. face to face with fierce truth.

The pain is not through the experience of love, but our conditions of love. Mourning is from ego's impossible attempts.. to grip onto love..

When one understands love rescues and kills.One will never reduce love to a still imagine in ego mind.. but the infinite dance of eternity.

To love, one must commit to presence of oneself. It's in self registering, we distinguish all illusions from the reality, there is only now.
 Either ruled by heart or ego, as one's courage to experience.. The fruit of love always return, in giving of one's own definitive creation.

~: Redeemer :~

~ There is always a dark reason for more darkness. The very same darkness.. can also punch a hole through us, light up the dark all around us. ~

~ The beauty of your light.. transforms every cold night ~  


The icy wind made me turn around to look..
Where did you come from ?
I heard a bang..
The joy in your steps slammed three Winters behind you.

Somehow I forgot too..
what held up my mind
as your switched a new question to my eyes.
You steady eyes answered me.
They speak no regrets.

The honesty blazes through to furthest corner of room.
You said:
Everyone opened my heart is a rough diamond
polishing my eyes even it cuts.
Anyone tries to break me,
will not see a drop of blood.
The fear in me is dead.
I am not the image you see.. but the dark pool in your soul.

Hair on my back stood up.
I could not take my eyes off this dark pool in my soul.
The one God sent
to cleanse all that I couldn't see within

I have never felt anything as bright in my life, as this moment.
The world inside has turned.. reaching to be burnt.
By your living flame.

In you.
I will see all darkness that were mine..
before I slaughter them with my own hands..
and best of all..
neither of us will be afraid.

For that, we knew this is why we've came.
While fears eat all hidden secrets around us..
We slowly die one by one.
Slowly, but surely.
Dead.

So, speak up: you said.
While firmly you eyes grips mine..
I am ready to understand: said I..
As I walk out of the dark
I'd never look back.

Life of time.
To be unconstrained by eyes, by minds, by frames.
Staleness of this fomenting self cannot reach God..
but dying cells of love.

Foment me.
Be the force that breaks who I think I am.
let me portrait you a devil who tries to take my soul,
beneath my grips to God's feet.

So in the moment just before my rebirth.
I can see who I really am again.

With a purified heart,
knowing it's your arm..
that kept me alive.



                                                               ~ Lyric Dreamer ~ 18.Nov.2011

You

Beneath soft glaring light
behind me on right
I know it's you

not distant memories
but sure silent presence
cultivating spaces between us
as you make time diminish

If it's not you here now..
it never was


We run off opposite directions religiously
to brush pass each other as we say hello

Your voice comes through
notes between a thought
a sound a silence
a space
formed completely ours

echoing in my welling heart
I hear endless whispers of love

The ways your eyes held mine
told histories
of all ever existed

The way your hands reach
disclose dimensional geography
secret routes to all missing stars

Sometimes I play the noises
to prevent this irresistible force
to overtake and devour my being

but my heart gave me away
every time you said my name
It's twisting in me
the tangle of passion
mystery


The way you think
tells me how you dance
When I move
so is my soul
even when I leave my heart with you

every time I go
is to come home to your call
I am the precise reception
to all your doubtless thoughts

This is the way I choose to launch

kiss me
I am waiting for the breeze

touch me
I am always ready for rain

scorch me
I need your heat to know life

scan me
Your eyes translate what I read

hold me
I am ready to melt, in our eternity

~ : Soul Love : ~

The look
woke somewhere beyond me
beyond my whole life
beyond time


The eyes that keep my heaven
The heart that purifies my present

Your form felt like mine
Sparks fly through my spin
whole universe magnetized to right now
right here


my thoughts
turn to noises
I don't see past
nor do I see future
It is now
and now is forever


Right at the second my heart burst
It flew a command to bring your lips closer
even our soul
is already together
entwined


Here I made you all the promises
that I can never back away
even my eyes betray me and cried for your absence
I promised to love


No matter how darkness torn my heart into pieces
and sold you to the demons that took your place
I promised I'll never forget


I will never betray my promise
to be in your eyes again


For in you my whole life made perfect
you are the only one truly sees who I am


Even to hell and back I will go further
even if my whole existence diminishes.
even I will never see you again
my love remains

~: Seventh Myth :~

charcoal blue night
lashing darker waves in Ocean
timelessly drifting across cosmos
spinning over new turns
in smell of moon light
dews of unearthly tinkle
a thirst.. for eternal night river
tired dreams hums faint melodies
splitting moments into quick sand
she slips through evicts of time
whist dreams frozen in transfix

In silence
her mind spells 7th myth
thoughts flutter pass flame
dancing moths print walls
she heard voice afar
from her beloved
through space distance-less
close and dear.. in heartbeats
soundless breathe imprint her chest

Togetherness welled within division
division embroidered togetherness
in the unseen forces merging
all kindest intent yet hardest rules
mindful mindlessness burns a compass
to heart's conquest in sleepless nights
her eyes drape answers in question marks
her body turns stillness to timeless temple
wadding bell chased dreams back to old Cairo

                                     ~ Lyric Dreamer ~  Aug.2011

~ : C for Sand : ~

Sigh ~ eden shore.. is whispering ...
calling her through the ally,

midnight smells of green and earthy hue ..
lost thoughts.. carried behind her neck, above the spin.
Sand again and again, still, the seashells.. yearning for sea.

Feels like November, the month of nostalgia and honey.
Returned again.. was her lost,  before she's born.
answers, cracked on the rocks and howled.

This is not a dream, not a joke, she bites her lip,
keeping it close to her chest, keeping it still ..
life, forces you out of your own will,
fill your heart with love, fill it with sorrow,

the comfort of lost dreams, lost hopes,
a sudden absurd longing of forgotten fears,
alas ... it was at least something familiar..

even that, she's now lost it to the call "
Looking back at her trail, she saw him,
distant and sincere, deep and silent
wind blows his hair said not a word..
tears rolling, but she doesn't move,
the stubbornness that held her fast,
gravitated, gave it her whole heart
like it ever was.. like it ever was...
a prisoner released from her sentence..
she ran, still crying, with lump in her throat..
God, did not come to you and leave for no reason..
it is not meant to be pain, now she's loved.
or a trick of fate, to keep pain so she feels..
the unattended thoughts, wishful fears.

Not looking back, distant further ..

deepest love in soul-felt pure .
so clear, make her heart ache..
Once her love given fully,

it's in lifts of unruly wind..
Pearls, rolling tears on waves
landed on her cold palms
with sand on her checks ..

she smiled, eyes beaming,

the glowing shimmer..

she has received the moon.

Your side in mine

My love
by the sea
time is now
turned to stones
In a parallel space
I feel your sure being
even my eyes blind me
here with constant lies
that, no longer matters
as the heart of mine
has now turned over
with your side in mine
love as we always have
ride on God's cosmic spree
eternally one and whole
you are the echo to my call
the light in darkest nights
all forces from pure entwine
safe hold our inviolable core
no matter how far we part
even when hell break loose
chaos send forth all armies
in smiles and thousand kisses
we always remain side by side

Codes

Time stands still and I glide
to the mind of silent infinity
walking on a invisible path
there I see no one, no sign
no road, rail nor transport
cannot tell if it was a fall or float
only that I am intimately engaged
to feel the textures of my dreams
to weaver the rich soil of my mind
thoughts... watch seedlings grow
in this outland
love is felt vividly
shapes shifts lucidly
imaginings becomes realities
realities become dreams

I know you are here
with me
even when I open my eyes
you are not there to be seen
to be heard ,touch, and held
only my reflection stands
before my three shadows
yet I hear your voice speaks to me
your heart and soul ebb and flow in me
it's almost indistinguishable
who's heart is sundering 
who's tears are falling
In you I find myself feeling
all too keenly all too tenderly
your sorrow bear to my own
even I was the cause 
and you never said a word
your joy, reach to me so brightly
like the bust of first ray from morning sun
smiles that shines deeply
I melt...
and turn to silver bells of Spring
slide off the curve on the full bloom of moon
every time

You, the golden child of stars
Here with you, I am free
to fall without gravity
in knowing
of a grand existence
memories of divine love
where you and I never part
always, forever, endless, eternity
are not pretty words of love
but only language we could ever speak
only words we can ever truly understood
all else we finds sorrow, dark holes
yet growth is part of the journey
to find what we have left to return
what is completeness without knowing pain
like butterflies of light from cocoons of life
you are my left wing and I am your right
our love is a belonging to soar free
the deepest surrendering of our hearts

Even if I was descending to hell
heaven is still within your heart I hold dear
nothing divides you from my existence
eternity is here, this very moment
written in the book of transition
you engrave the codes to my being
in constant spin we mark each other
threads of truth doing, undoing with love
the tug and pull before our ultimate launch
every code signified is no mystery to me
your thoughts are louder than my heartbeat
love in a dimension where no sphere or time
past, present, future exist within the awakening
codes of our calling travels across cosmos
alchemy of purification transmit hearts
in the original language God speaks
inside the infinite mind of yours
summon all that ever is
bring it forth to being
I am ready to be

Crusaders of Love

Her will sets her to be free
running through those corridors
opening, walking though doors
lead to more corridors, more doors
the key clinched to her palm
her heat streams a force forward
searching for one transition
uniquely made to her entry
deliriously lost
eludes in distraught
shadows appear
hell dogs hustle
the mistress stalks

Her hair float
smiles frozen
rigid frailty masked in icy steel
a haunt of her lifetime sorrow
her soul is a clouding burnt corpse
spellbound in fate of melancholy
softly glazed sink to dim lit hollow
subservient past hosts her motion
while she plays villain in her chase
with orders to unknown corridors
they are both in captivation
herself may not yet known
each step unfold as she follows
the sense, the desire awaken
of freedom to infinity untold
her escapee is now her hope

With the key in her hand
suddenly the path rise within her
while gaze into her pursuer's eyes
swamps of darkness drawn by clarity
mistress of mortality is no longer in discord
a soul transmission reflecting united division
clamps their opposition to intricate a pathway
echo of their silence emoted new waves
awash them both in truth to sober shore
new land with new possibilities
two new crusaders love brought

Kiss and tell

Baby... life is a game
and the show must go on
you are the director, actor
dancer, photographer, light engineer
complete life production is in your hands
don't look to me as if I have your answer
you know deep within that I am only a reflection
a figure of desire you painted on canvas
a vision you installed with your passion
a soul you engraved your love to core
I dance to your music while you incite my heart
there is no rules and neither of us follow

I dip my fingertips to test the warmth of sea
you raise your chin to feel direction of the wind
we surrender to and commend all elements
with omniscient marvel of the universe
in the story we share and act
the King and  the Queen
the princess and prince
warriors and magicians
lovers and muses
part our journeys
so be anyone we want to be
there we fold secret chapters

Ultimately we'll share our secrets
in the book of kiss and tell
stories of missions and bravery
we inventors and adventurers
in alchemy of life and union of souls
we know there is no end
in all mysteries to be discovered
but for now... life is short
the dance, songs, plays must go on

matrix

... steppin through the matrix... sinlov ~1165 ~

Stepping through the matrix
watch out for mind tricks
it's all a boom of your belief
at this instant moment
what you hold to
must be true
certain and sure
just for you

Dreamer's Alibi

Her journey to king Solomon's maze
a radical omniscient quest
in steps of inquisitorial wonder
whilst the lord of dark chamber 
remitted his gatekeeper's launch
finked her sacred pedant with an insidious trade
welcome her by 11th gate anticipating a lost
or arrival in hair flaring sink through satanic gravity
In a turn she leaped forth with all mischievous delving
hellbound espy not even one vixen's spectral track
faint hearted tailing overthrown in ashen orts
in audacious violet relentlessly blazed
misestimated traps accelerated her knowledge
path of a rapid speeder on impetuous conduct
mirage in perceptible etude beaming to the third vision
absence in fugitive state she's semi equivocated 
loveless creeds entraps all her sleepless dreams 
God deemed her a dreamer's alibi in his enterprise

Labyrinth

From this Ivory tower
where she froze time and events
past pulls her to where she could not go
place of powerlessness disowned ruins

Has she made a false promise to love
or is this her Madonna's cross
is she in godless existence
perhaps sightless in his place
in this prison she's captured
an oppressive closet enclosed
all these pain not known to escape

Clinched space once sacred and whole
darkening intrusions creped on her form
ravenous violation suffocated her soul
her skin and bone torn but unknown
host to a vengeful child's out lash
outgrown tortured soul strayed
Mother, will you soon be home
tried not to cry but she's lost
it seem such a dark road
men with sinister deed
approached in greed
voicelessly crucified
center of her heart
turned solemn lock
the hero is dead
knight never was

Her journey began
tragic funerals forward
wherever she disburse
there is spineless form
hankering drill spills will
between heaven and hell
she saw men glide and fall
in her quell flounce and taunt
she walks on in claggy haunt
lifeless cold plaque stone
a past of vague dreams
a love was never real
sleeping fairy tales
silent tears cursed
sorrows untold
she's ephemeral

In quiet existing stillness
gleaming sun casts gold
a key to sacred kingdom
arise to unfolded her hope
her hero is held hostage
beside gates of realms
armour dismounted
for her witness
distill her course
decay her faith

Map excluded
self engraved
a labyrinth
her soul
only route 
to this battle
her strength
to declare
victory or lost
her only exoneration
alone, her steps forward
beloved, awakening to her call
light within prevail pure and sure
in single decree all fear alleviated

Justice forged lightning storm
striking forth in command
darkness vanishing in held
whom prey in dark will
aggravate in cruel and ill
their blood thirst fan slits
fool's fall in bottomless pits
everted themselves whole
swallowed existence
to the mouth within
dire self savages
no mercy nor remorse
equilateral inception in just
whist requiem atoned

Heavenly ray beams
uttermost love radiates
pain, fear, suffer no longer sustain
Truth no longer equivocate
within infinite timeless being

Locket of her heart explicated
her spirit once more illuminate
a bird's broken wings restored
once more she's high flown
to her beloved calls
journey reunite

What was, is, always will

... sorry your heart is wrong
I have no more song... eddee shaw ~ 1108


Sorry your heart is wrong
I have no more song
for that which was real
could not be played with fiddle
reach in for my soul
touch me not in prurience
before it burns a hole
to what was, is, always will

Float

... float easily riding the surface... ~  Andover1111~ 1096

Float easily riding the surface
life is yet another ship on journey
for all I have
speaks no more but my borrowing
for all I love
I carry within dead or living
My love, this is only short parting
soon united again on our way back home

Fearless_by_Katzilla13

Say it is so Know it is so

Here I come before you, with love
knowing all that I know
whatever may not be even so
Sorrow and joy of which known as "I"
given to a space of no existence or time

Humbly I strip away the bigotry of mine
lay that ever judging mind beside
painfully made aware of all tied me back
you are perfection behold my inner eyes
ignited a flam of deep watery emotion
there is nothing left of me before you
but the translucent light within glimmers to your eyes

A love knows of nothing but to hold you here and dear
knows of no differences nor bestow fears
burns purifying fire in simple giving of "I"
lit all that I thought were once true and right
restore sights seeing love rising in every moment near

This love can never be diminished
I say it is so and know it is so
for you, love made me whole

Void

Often things we can't see worth the world
often what we can't express means mountains
there are too much to say and too little space here
perhaps nothing in depth makes much difference
the void of collective has drawn a line between
yet the boats are still sailing on sea
under moon lit glints mystery

Love eternal

The angel's song
melody is so familiar
from far away realms
calling for lost course

He is her only true light in dark nights
of dreamer's walk
even sleep eludes
her love's call remains sure
with a heart pure and strong
fear no tropes of mortal lord

her walk is shield by his beaming sword
howling air of angry force
pinning her to fall
to surrender her will in dying from

But walk on she will
the beat of her love's heart is the thunder and storm
determined to reach their destined shore
be one in bliss of love eternal
Death, is no more.